Sum of Everything

I don't know what to talk about just yet, so I am just going to start writing. It has been an age since I actually sat down to write and put my words down on (digital) paper. I have been trying to journal (on physical paper) regularly, rather unsuccessfully, and most times the culprit is my lack of impulse control when it comes to doom scrolling. I swear I have been trying (not my best, admittedly) to try and not look at my phone first thing in the morning, but the temptation is overwhelming. I know all the cons of looking at the phone as the first thing in the morning. I give myself that lecture everyday, and its usually in my mother's voice. But adult free-will is a very dangerous thing. On the rare occasion that I do end up picking up my journal to do my morning pages, I am often distracted by trains of thoughts that ideally should have made it to the word vomit that the pages are supposed to be dedicated to, but end up simply disappearing into the ether, because my mind wor...